I just wanted to take this moment to say that I am very sorry for misunderstandings you all may have felt you had about my behavior during the meet this year. I know that I kept to my self through most of the meet. I want to clear up that I was not trying to ignor anyone nor was I trying to be ain't-social. The cancer has really been kicking my butt this year and that week I was really feeling the worst I had been in a long time. Add in the fact that the heat and humidity was way to much for me and I had just gotten the news from my latest tests and scans and it wasn't good news. I had no energy what so ever and all I felt like doing was sleeping. A couple days into camping I could tell that I should have stayed home this year. Then I developed a leg infection which added to my unwellness. Then to top it all off, my boat sunk. It has come to my attention that my behavior during all that was going on during the whole ordeal was not what it should have been. I didn't even know what was going on because I had been sleeping. When I was awoken, it just didn't click in my head what was going - only that my boat could not be seen above water. After all that was said and done, I made sure everyone was alright and kind of checked out of my mind again. If I missed saying thank you to any of you (or if you felt that my thank you was not from the heart) that helped pull the boat of the water, please, please know that I really did appreciate all that was done to get the boat back on land and I am very grateful that you all worked so hard.
As I try to look back on that week, I KNOW that for some reason I really did check out - and my mind and body had just shut down. I dont remember about 90% of that whole week to be honest. I do know that I sleep most of that week away - not making it to most of the meals or the nightly gatherings by the campfire. I only ended up fishing about three times that whole week and if any of you really know me - I am out on that river morning, noon, and night so that should have been a clue that I just wasn't right.
So if I offended anyone by my behavior, I am very, very sorry. It was never my intention to make anyone feel like I was ignoring them or just plain being a {1}*****. Please know it was nothing that anyone did, I was just very unwell and not in my right frame of mind, and I am very, very sorry. |